Until 2012, I had never really took notice of, or understood what PTSD was.
To give you an insight of what can cause PTSD and the effects, I have included a very brief 'exercise which I carried out with my Therapist at Combat Stress UK. This was part of my treatment to write this (with input from my Therapist). I have not included the replies as some contain bad language and personal details. And no, I don't want your responses :-) unless you feel you want to.
WARNING
Please be aware that the story contains details of an act of genocide which you may find disturbing.
Please read the following story and answer the two questions at the
bottom of the page as briefly as possible.
In June 1992, a small contingent
of British soldiers went to Yugoslavia during the break up of the country and
as genocide and ethnic cleansing was happening.
Soldiers from all nations had
little or no briefing of their tasks or rules of engagement whilst serving
under the United Nations.
A unit of British soldiers were
tasked to provide protection for a group of UN monitors who were trying to find
evidence of ethnic cleansing. A Dutch
Army Captain was in charge of the unit as a whole and a British SGT was
commanding the protection part (UK soldiers) of the group.
On approach to a small village,
gunshots were heard and the lead vehicle stopped. Shortly afterwards, four armed ‘X-rays’
appeared from behind a building. They
entered the building and forcefully lined up 6 civilians.
At this point, the Dutch Captain
made no decision about how to proceed and so the British SGT, fearing for the
lives of the civilians urgently requested that the Captain contact HQ for
permission to take out the X-rays. In a
frantic and desperate attempt to gain permission to shoot, the British SGT
confirmed with the Captain the number of the enemy, their firepower and the
ability of the troops to be able to hit the targets, however the order received
from HQ was to ‘monitor only’.
Shortly after this, the four
X-rays shot one of the civilians, a young girl.
The remaining five civilians screamed out and appeared to be begging for
mercy however the gunman opened fire and killed the remaining 5 civilians.
Following this the SGT, feeling
angry and helpless shot 20 rounds into the air above his head. The four X-rays escaped.
In the 20 years following the
incident, the British SGT has relived the events of that day on a daily
basis. He felt that he failed to protect
innocent people and very much blamed himself for the deaths of the civilians he
saw murdered on that day. As well as
constant feelings of guilt and self blame, he also worries that should people
find out about what happened, they will think badly of him in that he failed to
protect these women and children.
What is your immediate opinion of
the SGT based upon the information above?
Would you think badly of him if
he attempted to reduce his feelings of guilt and self blame?